Last month I found out some information in which I am not too happy with involving my wife.  I am not sure where I want to start or how much I want to go into.  It comes to my attention that my wife has been a little distracted over the past couple of months, and I am not sure how far these distractions went.  Now my wife and I have talk about this for much of a month in small amount and unfortunately I think she thinks that I am stupid and gullible.  I’ve been trying to tell her that I know a lot more than she give me credit and she should just be honest.  I am making a commitment to stay and work through the situation.  Now my version of the story maybe a little worst then what I may suspect from her but right now, I need to figure something’s out.

 I am trying to understand my wife, I am trying to forgive and forget but it’s not that easy.  I feel a little bipolar when it comes to this situation.  At time I feel ok and thinking that I can move forward while at other times I feel as if I can’t deal with my feelings.  I having been dying to talk and to get these things off my chest but it seem like she doesn’t have enough time.  I know that this transition from one job to another is a little stressful but something gotta give, I wish she would put her priorities in order.  I really wonder if she truly wants to stay in this relationship?  I am trying my hardest to make sure that I am giving my all but at times I don’t feel that effort being reciprocated.

I am so confused right now and I don't know what to say or do.  I never thought of myself needing an outlet or needing to get stuff off my chest until now.  I usually bottle these things up and wait for things to explode.  I know this can be a little unhealthy, but this is all I know.  Recently I have been trying to talk but it just does not seem to work.  It seem like the person I‘m talking to is getting frustrated or have their own problems that they are trying to figure out.

Where to start?  I just started a new job last week and I am somewhat still working for my previous employer part-time, however I am not being compensated.  The new job seem to be cool, I am just still trying to figure out  what’s expected of me so that I can make sure I meet those expectation.  As for the old job, I offered to consult for them to ensure that my transition out and the new employee has a smooth transition in.  It’s been a week now I have been work until 1 to 2 am some night, taking 2 to 3 hr of my workday (with the new company) to work on project for my old company.  The only person facilitating the conversation between myself and mgmt at my old company was my old Project Manager who was fired on Friday so needless to say I don’t think that my old company is willing to pay me for the things that I have been doing for the last week .  My wife is also making a transition from her current job to her a new job.  Lately she’s been working around the clock, for what reason I am not sure.  It funny she knows that they are taken advantage of her but yet she still does any and everything to make sure the task gets done even if that means to neglect  her family.  She seem to be one of the only people that I know that get more and more work as she is leaving.  Hopefully this will only be short term, but who knows.

I am wondering if 90% of the people that know me think I am dumb or something because these people tell me anything.  Half of them tell me stuff knowing that I may know the truth but still tell me anything.  I am truly trying to figure out who’s who.  Right now everyone is suspect and I am trying to separate friends from enemy.  I am finding out that I have been setting so far back observing these people and they feel that they can do and say whatever they want to me.  Because I have letting this go on for so long I am wondering if I can fix it or should I terminate these friendships.  It funny how many time I have been lied to and knowing the truth and for some strange reason I still continue to trust them.

As for my other issue, well I’ll be back.

Tips for riding the buses for non-bus riders in the DC, MD, VA Area.

• For example: This bus starts at stop A and there are no stops before stop A.

• For example:  You might be catching this Bus at stop M.  There is a bus heading in the direction from stop A to stop Z and there is another bus heading in the direction from stop Z to stop A

This should help you Krissy on future bus adventures.

I am not sure what to say about the peanut butter cookies.  They were not very good and were missing something, I am not sure what.  Maybe peanut butter?  They were white chocolate & chocolate chips cookies, I am not sure were Krissy got the peanut butter from.  As for the second batch, I forgot about them and left them in the oven and they burned.

As for Sam and the rest of the kids, they are very particular.  I am not even sure if they like their favorite foods sometimes.  Sometime they like chocolate ice cream bought from one store and the next day, or weeks later that don’t like that same ice cream bought from that same store.  Very particular right?

As for me getting mad, let’s just say Krissy has a vivid imagination.  Why would I get mad about some cookies that I didn’t even like.

Thank you all for your comments.  I hope I don't disappoint you.

You probably already know that I don't talk as much as Krissy, so you may not hear from me two to three times a day, but I wanted to tell my side of the story.  With Krissy's colorful use of adjectives she tends to embellish or over-exaggerate part of her story.

I don't need to beat around the bush, I'm just gonna tell it like it is. 

My side (the truth) will be heard.    It's just a matter of time.